Saying Goodbye, it isn't easy? Is it? Well, yet another time another dear friend traveling to a distant place to pursue his/her dreams. Wishing that friend luck, stopping those tears right before they even gather in the eyes, is not easy. Well it isn't like you will never meet that friend again. Hoping somewhere round the corner our paths will cross again.
On Sunday I had to wish luck to a dear friend of mine. Really dear friend. A friend with whom I had fun in the college. A friend with whom I roamed around, laughed, shopped, shared the deepest secrets. That friend was going far to pursue her dreams. Dreams that had taken long time to come into reality. Lots of hardships, lots of failed attempts. Finally it was coming true, taking shape. I was really happy for her when I wished her luck.
Peacefully I came home, had my food, completed the 4th part of Harry Potter and went off to sleep. Suddenly at 4:00 a.m. I found myself wide awake. Thinking about hundred things at a time. Hundreds of memories rushing through, thousands of different things. She must be at the airport I thought. Leaving to pursue a dream. I am still here with all close people around. She was leaving everyone here and going to a distant place. What must be going on in her mind? I could not guess.
I was left in a gloomy mood. Thinking about whether this day will ever come in my life? Whether I will have to leave everything around to pursue something big? I had tried it last time. I could not get through. The path seemed really difficult. Maybe I was not good enough. I have decided to try again. But will I succeed? Should I be thinking about the final result? Or should I just try again without thinking about the final result? Lots of confusion. What is that friend of mine thinking about right now? Is she fine? Is she also confused about something? I have not got answers to everything yet. I am not sure, if I will get answers to all of them ever. But, this was just cluttering my mind. Felt like taking it out. Too many memories and thoughts.
I wish I had the pensieve in which I could take out my thoughts and keep. Well, this blog acts as one and hence putting them here. Lots of it will not make any sense. Just taking out the extra thoughts from my mind.
5 comments:
2 words: That's Life! :)
:):):) ... I am fine dear.. so sorry for not calling .. udya parva online bhet mag bolu ... have lots to tell..
sonali, reading your blog, i realised one thing about me... gradually, over years i have stopped thinking about the things that hurt me, things that worry, things that bring pain.
i am now wondering, do i run away from the sad part of life?
i have really stopped thinking about such things. i think a lot about all the happy things... but i dont feel anything about any sad event... have i become strong hearted, or hard hearted?!
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